what keeps the top spinning; what keeps the ball rolling?

what is there to do, when there's nothing to work for.

there's no point anymore.

goals? useless.

standards? out of reach.

so why bother.

if everybody outshines you, there just isn't any point.

however enthusiastic i am, it's so.. fake.

how i work harder than another, yet he beats me hands-down.
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damn.
i'll fight.
even if there's no point.

guh.
my blog is dead.
and so am i..
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so, today was the all comers meet - the coaches practically sent in all sprinters and hurdlers for the 150m run.
my timing was 21.69s, rather slow compared to others. 6th in my heats..
i'm the slowest among the RI people there, sigh. i did my best anyway. (can't believe i lost to some guy who didn't know how to use blocks!!)
but heck, i wasn't the slowest in the competition. It was quite fun loitering around and making random jokes with cca-mates over bubble tea. ah...

geog pt.
yawn.

today during assembly the singapore idol beatboxer charles stitch wong came to do a beatboxing workshop for us!
his beatboxing is really good. freakyy.
best assembly we ever had so far this year.
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third lang.
jap ca1.
there's this little, puny chance that i may pass.

but that's what i always say at all the exams, so i'll probably fail anyway, then i'll drop jap. ah well.
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life sucks.

i'm starting to be unable to stand alot of people.

pathetic, despo-for-attention, plain stupid, suck-up, tries to be popular but fails, is a complete asshole, doesn't care about people's feelings, only jealous of others and shows it meanly,unable to control temper, just damn arrogant,hypocrites,


all of'em.

losers.

urggh.
i mean, just as they are now, they could have been born that way, or it's a bad habit, yet they don't even try to change? gah.......

not that i'm perfect, i'm obviously not, but really..

it's getting on my nerves.

the above doesn't only apply to classmates.

can't they just like.. think? for a moment?

ah, forget it. i'll just have to live with it.

today sucked.

didn't sleep well last night.

was super tired in school, i practically slept the whole one hour before lessons start. (no morning assembly!)

we had half hour more for lunch! because there was some CNY celebrations between RI and the RIJC teachers. and the period cut off was CHINESE!

but heck, it was kind of wasted cuz i couldn't be bothered to go down for lunch, just stayed in class and slept.

until some asshole classmates pointed the projector at me.

i was ill ._.
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still went for training, but went home half way. kept feeling like puking.ugh.

my father's friends and their children are here, so it's like thirtheen more people. ugh.

i am going to die from this fucking headache.

hahaha.

went around relatives house to get ang paus~ but it was boring, of course. parents chit chat then i'll just sit in a corner, listen to my mp3 and sms.

watched little big soldier with my family.. character development was good, friendship shown much.. pretty good, not bad, but it ended off rather disappointing? they could have at least dramatize the guy dying a bit more ._.

hahaha.

sure is one surprising day today :)

read title.

ang pau money!

RI cny celebs was good. but my eyes still hurt from the teachers dancing to kpop.

anyway, gathering was super fun! from tao nan to trying to go to kallang leisure park(um funny story) to playing catching/hide and seek! yeah, doing that in kallang is really really fun. xD

we bowled~ i got second highest in the second game. 77 points, i suck >< but i only played better when bao huei brought in the 9 pounds. douglas owned everyone.

some went ice skating though, but we didn't go cuz it was too expensive.

haha xD

i swear, nature is playing tricks on me.

During training, it was endurance hurdles runthroughs for me. And the sun was so damn freaking hot.

after one set, when i went to rest in the shade, suddenly the clouds covered the insane heat.

i'm like, diao ._. coincidence huh.

then after my five minute rest, i went to do another set, suddenly the blazing hot sun popped out again.

in my head i was thinking, today so suay (unlucky) sia..

after my second set, i went back to the stadium steps to rest.

THE FREAKIN SUN HID BEHIND THE CLOUDS AFTER THAT.

dang it.

then at my third set, some plastic bag was blown by the wind onto the track. I was too tired to go and pick it up, so i just waited.

then it went around the hurdle, then slowly crawled towards me. all the way till it was one meter from me, then it stopped.

really, wth man.
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nature's weird, life goes on.

today for assembl the radio 987 came to RI! shan and rozz i think. i expected much more, but they just blabbered about random stuff, like upcoming events, our chinese new year decorations, and how it's like to be a deejay. and had some random guess-the song game... poker face, boom boom pow, then three other super-known songs. they gave out... a notebook and a cd the guy who got it right. the cd was Rihanna's rated r album.

since there was an extra prize, the guy was like, "okay, the first guy who comes up here and slap my hand gets the prize!" then darren(low), cleven,and joseph pang ran up. cleven got it, darren too slow. and joseph crashed into the stage. then he got up and held his neck as if it hurted like mad, (it must have, his body weight o_o)and then they gave him another prize just because he fell.

talk about utter pathetic-ness.
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japanese was boring. thank goodness CNY is coming..

hey guys, i'm back from the all comer's meet.

took part in the 100mHurdles. was rather nervous ._. and it didn't help that i arrived there rather early cuz i was paranoid.

so anyway, i screwed up. i lost balance at the second hurdle and then couldn't catch up with the others. i'm last in my heats, overall third-last. timing's 19.22 seconds. it's my personal best! cuz this is my first :p

haha, i'm not too disappointed. pretty much expected anyway.

dinghui was first in his heats(100m), second overall. his brother was first in 110m. monsters.

sian, i don't wanna go school tomorrow..

hmm, i can't decide which side i should branch this prose out to.

it's only a draft.

1. I looked at him.

He was thin, scrawny, and dirty. Eye bags drooped from his eyes like heavy sacks of regret, of sadness.

Along his cheek was a scar – five centimeters long. Cut across his cheek, cut across his history of violence, blood and misery.

It had healed, but it would never go away. It would remain a deep mark on him, it would return to haunt him for time to come.

I looked deeper, I looked into the windows of his soul – his tired, forlorn eyes.

He had killed. He had murdered.
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it's supposed to end with " i looked into the mirror, and gazed at the reflection staring back at me. i sighed."

2. I looked at him.

He was fit, buff and wore a crisp, blue shirt. He sported a neat hairstyle, brown hair combed to a side. If not for the five centimeter scar that he got from a sports accident, he was handsome.

In his hand was a King leather briefcase; with its golden crown logo in the middle . Important documents were inside, given as a task suitable to his status – he was a high-ranking director in a computer technology research company.

Was that it?

I looked deeper, into the windows of his soul – his emotionless eyes.

I saw more.

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after this, there'll be a twist and actually he's a bad guy. same ending as the first.

so which one should i pick?

you know some songs, which remind you of the past?

memories burn.

i couldn't bear to listen to that song, (everytime it appeared out of my mp3 random mode, i'd skip it) and i still can't.

memories hurt.....

Alvin.R
Raffles Institution 1P'09 2P'10
Tao Nan School 4L'06 5K'07 6M'08
TRACKandFIELD - hurdles!
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