tagged along with gerald, darrel, bao huei, bryce, shanwei, davis, benny, weizhi for.... slacking? we went to orchard and fooled around.

ah, nothing much. i went straight there after training, and walked around for ours at ion/313, so my legs are dead tired.

may update this post later.

when fierce winds tear you away, when raging rains daunt you,

fight back.

when swords pierce your heart, when they viciously slash at you,

fight back.

when evil controls you, when desire tempts you,

fight back.

when darkness sprouts out from the earth, when injustice faces the world,

fight back.

when life is unjust, unfair; when everybody is against your cause,

fight back.

when you are outnumbered, when you have no place to run,

fight back.

when despair is everywhere, when doom looms ahead like a dark cloud of death,

fight back.

when the light is disappearing, when the very last hope is gone,

fight back.

when everything disappears, when the world ends;
when the universe collapses into an irreversible destruction;
when the clock stops,

you fight back.

when fierce winds tear you away, when raging rains daunt you,

fight back.

when swords pierce your heart, when they viciously slash at you,

fight back.

when evil controls you, when desire tempts you,

fight back.

when the time has come, when injustice faces the world,

fight back.

when life is unjust, unfair; when you are discriminated,

fight back.

when you are outnumbered, when you have no place to run,

fight back.

when the light is disappearing, when the last hope is gone,

fight back.

when everything disappears, when the world ends;

you fight back.

i look at myself in the mirror.

look into the windows of my soul, look into what i have become.

i reflect.

till now, i look forward to the day where my reflection will smile at me.
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Amongst the other plants, a single blossom stands out; a perfect symbol of beauty.

In the starry night, there's the special one star shining so bright;

On the sandy shores, rocks, seashells aplenty - but that one rock, glistens and shines with pure perfection.

-to be continued..

hmm.

yesterday, me and douglas went back to tao nan to collect last year's math prelim paper. (it's for our math Research Education project, we're sort-of going back to tao nan to teach math). bumped into mrs soh. (why do i always see mrs soh when i go back?! first, the library cip, then the other time also..) chatted a little while.

i'm quite surprised someone actually recognised me, it was a junior whom i met through wushu..? then he quitted. somehow he was in chess too, now he's in badminton. o_o he was like, "do i know you...?" (stare) me: "um.... i think so." he's really tall now.. and i forgot to ask for his name.
ah, the nostalgia.
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woke up at 9.30.

stared at the clock.

closed my eyes for a few seconds, and opened them again, hoping it was only my eyesight.

didn't work though.

jumped out of bed, called bradley ( who was at training already ), ate a banana while running out.

rushed like mad. when i was at bishan mrt, going to change to circle line (to marymount), the sign said it was arriving already.

sprinted, (yes really sprinted ) all the way, went down the stairs two steps at a time and jumped on in time! there's that awesome feeling when you just caught a bus/mrt, and it felt good. everybody was staring at me. then some stranger from outside grinned at me and did that "yes!" fist action. i smiled back.

oh well.

still can't do that three step thingy T_T i can clear the second hurdle, but after that... jialat.

then mr tan told me to do four step! it's really weird to use my dumb leg to clear the hurdle ( first hurdle left leg, second hurdle right leg) cuz it's less flexible. nevertheless, i managed it, although i always lose a lot of speed when i use my right leg. at least, now i can clear all hurdles. which means i can compete.. not that i'll win, but i'll try to get in the top 5.

~ yeah thanks gerald. well said.. never thought of it that way.

before the angst, lets have some fun.

in class we played teacher bingo! okay you have a list of words, and you guys have to try to ask random questions to make the teacher say that particular word. the person who succeeds will get one point! and cancel it out.

1.bead
2.chess
3.memory
4.mass
5.pillow
6.stitch
7.pleasure
8.sheep
9.wheel

example : simon was like, "mrs lim, are these notes only for our viewing pleasure, or should we study it? "

mrs lim :" of course not only for your viewing pleasure la! go home and -" cut off by class laughter.

teachers were blur, of course.
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training.
turns out that me not being able to clear the next hurdle within three steps was cuz i thought it was too far. then i'll stop halfway.

i just ran and jumped from super far, and i cleared it! not very well though. my posture is screwup on the second hurdle.

did it again,
just that i fell down.
no idea how i fell, really. my wound became open and bled, my arm got funny bruises all over. and the hurdle toppled and bounced and hit my head ._.
then later coach said : " next training, this saturday. i give you two days rest. we won't do sledging beforehand, and start hurdles fresh. if you still can't clear properly... - long awkward pause- i'll have to take you off hurdles. for your safety. " ( i fell last last week. )

i'm like, for safety? that's utter bullshit it's just a few freaking scratches. i bet its just cuz i suck. that he thinks i'm wasting his time. that i just can't compare to others. ding hui is a monster, he's like a sec 4. bradley does 400m. eric clears it okay cuz he's tall. yue en has been transferred to sprints.

i'm pissed at myself. really. there was just this intense feeling and anger and i realised, it was at myself. at my imperfect, flawed, me. my height. my strength. my will power. my intelligence.

i'm jealous of those people who're born perfect. tall and strong, good looking, smart, academically and EQ, has a cool attitude, popular. like fuck'em.

i'm gonna prove coach mr tan wrong. i'm gonna fucking show him that i didn't waste the last two months of hard work for nothing. i'm not gonna waste my efforts in changing cca. i. am. staying. in. track.

switching identities is super fun on msn. like really. i switched with gerald, synth-di with cheryl, bryce with darrel.. haha.

RJC track is done!

lets see. we didn't get to continue risk. gah stupid history teacher.

tired. i slept on the bus and woke up just before my stop. ><

/edit/

just remembered.

me and mingjun thought of this awesome prank in class. he plugged his phone to the class speaker, then i went outside the class and called him. haha it was super funny okay, i was like (low, serious voice) "sorry for the interruption, can 2L to 2Q, please move to the junior block atrium for RE immediately. Repeat, 2L to 2Q, please move to the junior block atrium for RE."

HAHAH then i went in class and turned out only a few got fooled, cuz it was a little too soft and everybody was yelling.

><

mehehehe we'll try it again some other day.
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OKAY I absoLUTELY cannot believe that it's friday. YAY WEEKENDS! lets see. half of january's through. IT'S ALMOST THE JUNE HOLIDAYS!

~ went for debate trials today. motion was "parents should not be allowed to spank their children". did pretty okay. answered rebuts properly..but i missed out one point where i could have talked more about.

ANYWAY, THANKS GERALD AND DARREL AND BAO HUEI FOR HELPING! (debate notes)

lalala

sorry for not updating..

FOR HISTORY WE'RE PLAYING RISK! as in really. on the computer. we form groups in class and then we play!! it's supposed to be part of our curriculum. suansuan those RG people who had a test. haaha xD

urgh can't believe itachi was an illusion. GAH

and.. i can't remember anything else. hurhur too bad.

today was supposed to be dean's birthday gathering, but some people last minute didn't turn up, which probably made dean pissed and cancel the thing. *glare*

after tuition, was going home. i was like, super bored cuz i was quite excited about lan >< .. then a random thought came up, "wouldn't it be nice if someone i know comes out of nowhere." then SUDDENLY, darren walked out of the corner. i'm like, wow wtf i'm psychic. turns out he also just finished tuition.

while walking on the bridge, i also spotted another ! he's from RI. i know him, but i doubt he knows me . hmm. my extra sensory perception totally rocks.

oh damn school's tomorrow. weekends disappear too fast. but holidays vanishes faster.

whoa.

that was fast.

first week of school is over!

only forty weeks left.

um. don't know what to blog about. heheh

very tired.

new english teacher. jeremy lim.. he's rather strict, but at least he's sarcarstic so it isn't that boring.

philosophy teacher.. Dr Iluyomade Raphael Funwa. he's from nigeria, so he has the funny accent.. he pronounces "learn" as "lAn" and number as "numba". but he's really really nice.

geography teacher. Mrs Lim. >< she's.. a little strict, and a little funny. so-so.

chinese teacher. dai lao shi. she's really nice, reasonable with rules. she's a new teacher and is pretty young, (not like those ancient people ><) so she ain't that blabbery.

science teacher is huang yuting. ms huang. or was it mrs huang? i hate it when i forget. she's nice. but it gets a little boring.

raffles trail tomorrow, (cca exibition for the tiny sec 1s ) i'm planning to chiong TKAM while taking care of the exibition >< YES I HAVEN'T READ IT YET. like eff. there's a group task handed out already.

had some retarded "the quest" which was like last year's sec1 orientation amazing race. go around bishan, take pictures. by go around, i mean jog and walk and run for alot. it's pretty pointless.

my class is on the highest floor. third floor.

lets see what else.

OH YEAH. track. dsa people. one's called damien(ha, gerald?) the other's joesh (the coach's son!) and they're freaking fit and buff and own us sec 2 except ding hui, kuan hian. but kuanhian should be out of shape too. he went overseas for damn long..

nothing much. i was super tired on the bus 48 from newton. and slept and woke and slept and woke.

ack.

training sucked.

i fell.

i was clearing the second hurdle then i fell.

i don't know how i fell, but maybe my trailing leg hit the hurdle.

whatever it was, i tumbled down.

i suddenly became damn pissed and i instantly stood up and swore.

then i realised my wrist was sprained.

slowly became dizzy.. my sight was blurred.. i was seeing black stuffs. and i had tinnitus. (the ringing in your ears) and everyone's "are you okay?" became soft..

don't know man. i was walking like a drunk man then coach asked me to lie down on the grass.. then he pulled my legs and shook me. and told me to remain there and suntan abit ><

i was okay after that.. funny way of recovery.

found out that my upper back thigh was scraped too.

coke numbed everything else..

a new year calls for change! so i created this blog. regret lots of things in 2009..

Alvin.R
Raffles Institution 1P'09 2P'10
Tao Nan School 4L'06 5K'07 6M'08
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